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Blogger's Block: The Emotional Toll of Losing Confidence


I haven’t posted on here in a while, so let’s talk about why.


My initial thoughts when writing this blog was to fill it with excuses. ‘I’ve been busy’ ‘I’ve had a lot of personal situations to deal with’ ‘I’ve been stress at work’. Now are all these true? Of course, but they merely scratch the surface of the underlying issue.


When I embarked on this blogging journey, my vision was clear — a post every two weeks, drawing on my experiences to extract valuable lessons through reflection. I wanted to candidly explore situations, fostering awareness in my actions. My commitment was to write honestly, avoiding the temptation to sugar-coat, manipulate, or redact stories. This transparency, however, left me vulnerable to judgment, and that's where the real challenges arose.


Laying your heart on the line requires confidence. During my initial secondment, this confidence was on an upward trajectory. Every meeting, each assignment, and every review were building blocks, revealing the potential for me to become a great leader and manager. Yes, I made mistakes, but they were the stepping stones to learning. I had a sparkle in my eye and a spring in my step.


Yet, life is unpredictable, and circumstances beyond our control can alter our trajectory in an instant. One such event washed away the confidence I had carefully built. It was a tidal wave of change, leaving me disoriented and bewildered. It’s difficult to prepare for such a change. I’d been warned that such things would happen. My dad’s voice, saying ‘change is one of the certainties in life, son’ are ringing in my ear as I write this. But the physical effect of a lack in confidence truly hit me harder than I could ever expect. It affected everything. My performance at work, my impact in work, and my drive to achieve. It seems like this blog was the first casualty.


So, whilst I have been away from the blog, I have been in the long road to build my mojo back up. Step by step, building myself again. And I couldn’t have done it without the help and support of the people around me. Most of them, will never understand how much of an impact they have just being themselves and to those, I am so grateful.


As I retrace my steps and rediscover my voice, I am reminded that resilience is not only about bouncing back but also about growing stronger with each setback. The break from this blog has been a part of that process—a necessary pause to recalibrate and gather the strength to share once again. So, here I am, acknowledging the challenges, embracing the lessons, and looking forward to the stories that will unfold in the chapters to come.

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